Life has certainly been up and down the last couple months. We continue to wait for answers from the VA/Army about retirement, basically all we get is a run around so life is up in the air and I feel like I have no control over it at all. A feeling I really hate.
Christmas Eve we found out one of my dear friends was diagnosed with lung cancer and given a very short time to live. Her mom and I were friends in Nevada, turned out in this small world that Steve had known her for years before I met him and since she lived in Colorado we got close while I lived there. She lives in Grand Junction and helped so much with my kids when they would go visit their Dad, I always felt more comfortable about them going because I knew she was there to help.
She had some serious feelings for Steve and I hoped they would get together, she cared deeply for my kids and they loved her and they are already part of her family, her mom is "Nanny" to the kids so I thought it would be perfect. Instead I got a call from her brother telling me she was in the hospital and not expected to live long, my heart just broke, she is a caring, generous person who has been through a lot of heart ache and trials in the last year and I thought she was catching a break instead this....
She is fighting and we have so small glimmers of hope that may give her a little more time, I pray and pray for her but sometimes I wonder is anyone listening.